Oh, hey, it's almost my birthday!

1. Saturday night was the big World Premiere Concert at school. Our composer was fantastic and our conductor was ridiculous. Concerts like that are always fun because it gives an opportunity for upwards of 100 individuals (including myself, lunaticraft, and zcrescendo) the opportunity to collaborate and have our individual talents contribute to a group success. As I near the end (relatively speaking) of my performing career, I realize that I take these opportunities for granted a bit too much.

2. The concert, of course, was followed up by our usual trip to Coopers. Hey, friends, I hope you got enough of your "pass the beer by fishy89" games, because they end next weekend!

3. We're starting to get toward the end of the semester here and I don't really like that so much.

4. Did I mention that my affairs of the heart are annoying?

5. No? Then I'll copy zcrescendo and profess my love for jello pudding pops. I don't think you've mentioned them in your last few blogs.

Here's Some Thoughts...

Well, it's been one long, exhausting day. This whole three classes in a day (2 @ 2 hr, 1 @ 1.5 hr) thing is really getting old, fast. Here is some food for thought that's been going through my mind.

Things are starting to happen a little bit fast. In my last post, I informed you readers that I am moving out of the house and that the parents are relocating themselves. Being that six months ago, I was unaware of any such changes, I am starting to get a tad overwhelmed about the soon-ness of all of this. And that overwhelmingness is really starting to intrude upon my daily life. I feel myself increasingly spacie in the wrong situations (i.e. during class and during rehearsal). I find myself becoming stressed out easier than normal, and that's annoying as all hell. That's one thing... when you build up this academic pedestal to stand on, you cannot take a break. And, right now, that is exactly what I need. I need a break from school, from home, and just some me-time. Throw in some friends, I always have time for them. Which is another thing. I really cannot ask for better friends. They've been around for my fall into psychotic neuroticism and are, surprisingly, still around! And I thank them for that. I thank them for their being someone to talk to throughout all of these events and hope that they continue to do so. I promise, as of June 1, I will return to normal. Hopefully all will be well then.

I am finding myself increasingly without balls. Like, seriously, I get it. On the romantic end, things tend not to work out for me... and it's my own damn fault most of the time. One would think that I would have all of the confidence in the world. However, as one of my friends put it, I have confidence in what I know I'm good at, and lack in confidence in what I haven't mastered, or proven my competency in. So, until I actually realize that my lack of confidence is unwarranted, or, to be blunt, full of shit, then the same shit will keep happening. And, I'm not prepared to let that happen.

Anyway, cue the countdowns:

18 days until my 21st Birthday!!!!!!!

49 days until my lease begins and I'm in my apartment!!!!!

Well, It's Been A While...

I'm going to steal zcrescendo's "main points" format for this post; it's needed...

1. I am going to be an independent liver of life come June 1, 2010! That's right! Independent liver of life. Here's the story... The NEPA region has proved futile for my parents' economically, so they're getting out. House just sold yesterday, pending mortgage agreement and whatnot, and they will be gone pretty soon. Which means...
a... I'm in an apartment for my senior and supersenior year at Scranton, which will be cool.
b... I'm a "real" college student from now on.

2. The last month has proved to be awesome because of two breaks thrown in there. Here's some of the stuff that's been going on...
a... HOCKEY! I've seen two Flyers games over the past month and, while I will NEVER trade in my Ranger blue, the games are fun. Fans are ridiculous in different ways.
b... BOWLING!
c... RANDOMNESS!

Well, I really wanted to pop on here to get point #1 out of the way, so, bye.