Something Else Has Been Bugging Me...

My lack of anything even closely related to romance in life.

I get very annoyed from time-to-time, and now would be one of those times, that my own lack of romance in even its simplest form causes me to become bitter. Why? The simplest of minute things, such as seeing a couple holding hands, begins to piss me off. I know it's jealousy - it is "why can't I have what you have? Haven't I been single long enough now?" And it's not like couples even flaunt themselves, it is my own pissed-off nature with regards to this stuff.

Almost everyone I hang out with is in a relationship... that is a problem in of itself. I'm not 21, so my single friends who go to the bars are, well, at the bars. My under-21 friends, those who I love and respect and all that stuff, are all in relationships. I hate the fact that every time I am hanging out with them, I cannot help but feel that I am a third wheel or that I am keeping them from engaging in their private affairs. As much as they may say, "No, you are not a third wheel, we are all hanging out," that will not help me or make me think any differently.

At this point and time, I could come up with a comprehensive list of every reason why any girl would not want to show interest in me whatsoever... And it sucks. And it shows no change in the near future.